Song:In The Shadows.
           [ Rasmus ]

No sleep
No sleep until I am done with finding the answer
Won't stop
Won't stop before I find the cure for this cancer
Sometimes
I fell I going down and so disconnected
Somehow
I know I am haunted to be wanted

I been watching
I been waiting
In the shawdows all my time
I been searching
I been living
For tomorrows all my life

In the shadows

In the shadows

They say
That i must learn to kill before I can feel safe
But I
I rather kill myself then to turn into there slave
Sometimes
I feel that I should go and play with the thunder
Somehow
I just don't wanna stay and wait for a wander

I been watching
I been waiting
In the shadows all my time
I been searching
I been living
For tomorrows all my life

Lately I been walking walking in circles, watching waiting for something
Feel me touch me feel me, come take me higher

I been watching
I been waiting
In the shadows all my time
I been searching
I been living
For tomorrows all my life
I been watching
I been waiting
I been searching
I been living for tomorrows

In the shadows

In the shadows
I been waiting

*almost like what i feel*

live as you are........
live with your heart.......

I don't know why but is the words that kept coming out of my mind ^^;;;;;
I'm not too rich and i'm not to poor, just beverage...........=). i always want something that  i knew it will be impossible for me to get it now and 4 years form now on.......i guess. such as.......a super cool cellphone, notebook pc, pocket pc, mp3 player, and most of allll...........japanese things that so expensive, let's just say things that is above RM100.

My family always fight each other, so much of a family problem's ne?? what the hell is happening in my family??? ><;;. i just don't get it. there want us (me and my brother and sisters) to be tensai!!!!!!!! >< arghhhhh.!!!!!!!!! man....hate that so much. i don't think they care about our happiness. always with what they wants us to be, what about what we want to be, it's not their life, it's ours!!!!!! my life!!!!!! the future knows better about the present than the past. people change and same thing will not happen because people nowadays are so much not like the past!!!! we hunger for new technology and things that we couldn't have. it's not like i couldn't have those things i've just said, my mom and dad wouldn't want me to have those. imagine this, both of their 'gaji' is about more than RM 10,000 !!!!!!!! they want us to be nerds!!!!!  we are the teenagers!!!!!!! it is what we are !!!!!! i want my life to be full of happiness and meaningful!!! they don't like me learning japanese.......~.~;;; makes me feel like 'why does this has to happen to me'

Sorry guys.......i'm just really mad right now.........i dunno where else could i 'muntahkan' this madness of mine.

Anyway.....let's talk about other things ne? ^^;;;; i'm gonna go for a vacation tomorrow with my family, i bet there's gonna be a fight between my mom and dad early in the morning,huh~~doko e ikimasu ka.....(@__@)) i wanna know ,oshiete kudasai!!!!! just curriouss, hahaha ^^;;;; 

i've got to pack up my clothes for tomorrow, sorry i won't be updating my blog for a few days, maybe i'll be back friday afternoon or...saturday morning maybe we'll be going to kuantan,pahang or terengganu.i'm gonna miss u guys!!!!  *not really* "^-^"

got 2 go, ne? see you all after my vacation.

Ja mata ne!!!!